If you feel like you don’t count…

You know them too. People who seek you when it suits them, who delight in your presence when their mood is just so, who are happy to work you to the ground, and, adore you whenever you ride high on the threshold of value they happen to prioritize in that moment. When these conditions aren’t…

Thoughts on presence

Presence. It’s a big word. A big thing. A difficult thing. A thing of much magic. Given enough time and life struggles, the most ambitious love or goal will be challenged in frightful ways. And the truth is, there are always reasons to leave. Sooner or later…always. And another truth is, it’s easiest to see…

To a New Year of more than perhaps…

This was a year for which it is difficult to pick a word. I like the way the word ‘ghastly’ sounds when British actors say it in period drama films, so I pick that one. So then….it was a ghastly year. Perhaps because Games of Thrones was on pause, the universe felt compelled to compensate…

It is time…

Perhaps because the world is already filled with beautiful things, we forget sometimes – or many times – that we are here to also create.  Yes, to create what we see by deciding the how and the when. By creating new ways of seeing.  Perhaps because the world is already giving us beautiful things, we…

Can it ever be more than just a lesson?

You are told that you can do pretty much anything at any time if you just put your mind to it. Not true. Or at the very least rarely…very rarely true. I too have learned that you can’t do many things until you understand, learn and are ready. Also, until circumstances align. So how is…

A tribute to two beloved dogs

The many rescued animals who’ve been part of this family over the years (mostly cats, four dogs) were not and are not easy to handle at times. But they were (and are) all beautiful …and so loved. No matter how many animal companions you’ve shared your life with, and lost, nothing prepares you for the…

Keeping a tidy soul: a strange little almost story

“Be careless in your dress if you will, but keep a tidy soul.” ~ Mark Twain It’s funny, or maybe just interesting, or maybe just strange…that I can not write about it. In my room of words, all the drawers are locked. I am not welcome there in this moment. But something must be said. There…

The phoenix always rises…

“When everything seems to be going against you…remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it.” ~ Henry Ford In retrospect, we often end up glamorizing and romanticizing struggle. The truth is, struggle – and especially when it lasts a long time – is anything but glamorous or romantic. As someone who finally…

Beyond repentance and salvation: we are not broken, guilty, or indebted

To clarify…I am baptized in the Christian faith, I also practice a form of Buddhism, and I consider spiritual awareness and practice to be essential in life. And since many will completely disagree with what I’m saying, at least they’ll know I’m not some kind of atheist/nihilist/anarchist etc. having a fit. What I am is…