This blog was born three years ago today. I love anniversaries. And the numbers involved. The number 7 for the day, for the complete date, and in a year of the same number.
Yes, I get very excited when I come across patterns, which we usually call coincidences and which are, in fact, instances of synchronicity. And regardless of how one feels about them, they do make life infinitely more interesting and fun. At the very least!
I sat for a bit tonight and thought about the journey…this journey from silence to light and what it means. And I realized that I used to have an expectation of arriving somewhere, of crossing a line.
It’s no longer how I see it. This journey is a journey of the soul. There is no line to cross. Silence is immeasurable. So is light. And if one journeys with an open heart, at every step something is added and created. Every step is growth, increase and an even greater blossoming. As we expand, we create more room to expand.
At every step, the silence becomes light.
Truth be told, the journey wasn’t and isn’t always easy. There are shatterings and impossible moments of darkness. But somehow, a path always appears. At times it is enough for only one step. At other times it allows running and dancing.
There is much frustration, to put it lightly, when you’re trying to walk and suddenly the lights go out and you have no clue where you are. But what a joy it is to realize that you are not lost. Better yet, that you can never be lost, because even when you believe you are lost and everything around you points to that frightening reality, it’s not true. The path is there.
So the point of the journey is to shake you to your core and teach you to pay attention. And to learn trust.
Because trust is not an easy thing at all. You don’t just get it one day because you heard a song, or watched a movie, or someone told you that you’re loved or blessed or whatever else.
You develop trust very slowly, as you understand that your vulnerability is what is going to allow you to move forward and do the right things, not your strength or achievements. As soon as you start to be more comfortable with uncertainty and realize that following your heart is the only requirement, you start to build trust. And it’s a good thing. A really good thing.
I am very proud to tell you that after three years, I am not wiser or stronger or braver. I am only a little bit more real. And also, a bit more humble and gentle. Because when you fall so many times and for so many different reasons, you really start to appreciate the hands that come towards you to lift you up. And so your own wisdom, strength and courage are no longer ornaments for your ego. Their only use can be as “hands” that hopefully can help another traveler in need.
I will end here with my favorite quote. It sums up the shedding of pride, the true meaning of love and tenderness. And it is truly the theme of this journey from silence to light.
“Even after all this time,
The sun never says to the earth,
“You owe me.”
Look what happens
with a love like that.
It lights the Whole Sky.”